So in my country our university works, in the way that, you apply directly into your major and then it usually takes about three years to get your bachelor where you only have courses surrounding your major. Depending on the popularity of the specific major the grade average, for getting in, changes. So last year … More Choices, when you feel nothing.
I don’t know about you, but for me, my depression is split between numbness and pain. In each their way, they are equally horrible and after some time i just wish for the other to come, immediately regretting it. The numbness is what I, in professionel terms deem to be dysthymia and the second, just a … More It’s coming
People always say that if you just do your best, that’s enough. First of all: What if it isn’t enough? and second: How do i even know what my best is? How can you possibly know what your best is? Is it doing what is asked of you or is it going beyond that? Is … More How do you know when you are doing your best?
Whenever i let out my worries, i’m almost always met with some kind of version with “You’ll do great, don’t worry” and it’s very sweet that people have that kind of faith in me, but most times it doesn’t change that i’m still gonna worry about it. A lot. Because that is how my bloody … More Sorry i’m a pessimist
Am I out yet? Out of this torment. Out of my brain. Can i focus on what really matters now? Whatever that is. I know it is not this.This black thing that fills my brain and fuels my life. I have let it consume my life. My thoughts. My feelings. My choices. I had been in … More Am i in the clear yet?
I cannot speak for every depressed person out there, but the question “are you okay” really fucks up my day and here is why: So lately i’ve been told that, on the outside, i look like i’m getting better. And they say the words “getting better” like it should be accompied by one of these … More Are you okay?
Disclaimer: Towards the end i might become a bit melo-dramatic. But stay with me guys, it’s not that bad. I hope. So i don’t care if it’s “fake it till you become it” or “fake it till you feel it”, they are all bound by the same principle. If you are sad, then you have … More Fake it till you make it or don’t?
We are so fast judging others, myself included. The first thing you do in any situation is judging. You walk into a room and you judge. You judge depending on what you appreciate the most. It could be style, cleanliness, size, freshness of air, it could be anything. You meet a person for the first … More Judging
Warning: Some pessimism, bitterness and passive agressiveness can be detected in the following blog. Lately i’ve been more stressed than usual which results in me taking a few steps back into my deep abyss of depression and a lot of procrastination, which really ties a nice bow on the circle of stress. Because as a … More Depression is..
For a dramatic effect listen to “Wait” by M38. Great song, you’ll thank me later. I have done endless research on depression and what most people say is that depression is the state of feeling nothing. I disagree. For me depression is feeling to much. To much of all the bad feelings out there. It’s … More What happens next?
The slow way of living 