So in my country our university works, in the way that, you apply directly into your major and then it usually takes about three years to get your bachelor where you only have courses surrounding your major. Depending on the popularity of the specific major the grade average, for getting in, changes. So last year … More Choices, when you feel nothing.
I don’t know about you, but for me, my depression is split between numbness and pain. In each their way, they are equally horrible and after some time i just wish for the other to come, immediately regretting it. The numbness is what I, in professionel terms deem to be dysthymia and the second, just a … More It’s coming
People always say that if you just do your best, that’s enough. First of all: What if it isn’t enough? and second: How do i even know what my best is? How can you possibly know what your best is? Is it doing what is asked of you or is it going beyond that? Is … More How do you know when you are doing your best?
Whenever i let out my worries, i’m almost always met with some kind of version with “You’ll do great, don’t worry” and it’s very sweet that people have that kind of faith in me, but most times it doesn’t change that i’m still gonna worry about it. A lot. Because that is how my bloody … More Sorry i’m a pessimist
Am I out yet? Out of this torment. Out of my brain. Can i focus on what really matters now? Whatever that is. I know it is not this.This black thing that fills my brain and fuels my life. I have let it consume my life. My thoughts. My feelings. My choices. I had been in … More Am i in the clear yet?
The Hamster Wheel I walk upon the streets so weary Where people go, oh so dreary Smoke is kissing the stone cold ground With the silence of no sound This was not supposed to be their future And all in while they look down at their suture That holds the wound they got the day … More The Hamster Wheel – Poem
For me, personally, there are two kinds of depression. I apologise for the nature metaphor if anyone has a better one please let me know. For real i came up with it 5 minutes ago. It’s not good. The first one is like a hurricane inside my mind. It’s ripping up the earth, debris is … More Two kinds of depression
I cannot speak for every depressed person out there, but the question “are you okay” really fucks up my day and here is why: So lately i’ve been told that, on the outside, i look like i’m getting better. And they say the words “getting better” like it should be accompied by one of these … More Are you okay?
I am sorry to disappoint by saying i did not create any slam poems. This video however really urges me to try it. Anyway, this is just a really short post for the soul purpose of sharing this epic video of a girl explaining her depression to her mother via a slam poem. It’s genius … More Slam poem
The supposed inspirational Wednsday, that came on a thursday, can apparaently now be any day of the week. Because you simply can’t force inspiration or expect me following a simple plan.
The slow way of living 